SO the thing is I wrote 2 pages in 5 days. Yeas shit happens. But if I keep on doing like this I'll be ready with my essay on time. And the other thing is that I'm doing everything but writing. E.g. today I went to the gym not just to bodypump but right before it for trunk training. And tmrw I'll go at am to cycle to Meihlati. It means I have to wake up at 5:30 am. Getting crazy but no worries it happens when I wave to do something important. At least I can feel that I'm alive because my muscles..
Monday, February 27
Wednesday, February 22
Panic
I started to write my essay. the front page is nearly done only the titel missing.
And I created 5 sentences as a text. Yeah on the way hom I met with the Greeks and they said if I'll write everyday 5 sentences I can finish in year the 10 pages. Actually it's true. But I don't think when the teacher told us if someone won't be ready with the essay until the deadline pls contatct him" meant that u can tell him it'll take 336 more days to finish it..
And ofc there is some problem with the researchplan: we didn't think about the etical part of thehow to coect participants as anorexic persons.. Come on, it's a researchPLAN we don't even have to do it, and anyways we could collect AN people in ethical way..
Shhhh but actually the indoorcycling was good and I realised that Bodybump is BodyPump so sorry somehow I always thought that's bump instead of pump which has a meaning as well..
eating chocolate don't buy in Lidl the 200g finest dark chocolate because it's soo good you can't stop eating it..Fortunately I started to eat it on friday so it's ok. And anyways tomorrow I'm going at 10:15 to the gym..
And I created 5 sentences as a text. Yeah on the way hom I met with the Greeks and they said if I'll write everyday 5 sentences I can finish in year the 10 pages. Actually it's true. But I don't think when the teacher told us if someone won't be ready with the essay until the deadline pls contatct him" meant that u can tell him it'll take 336 more days to finish it..
And ofc there is some problem with the researchplan: we didn't think about the etical part of thehow to coect participants as anorexic persons.. Come on, it's a researchPLAN we don't even have to do it, and anyways we could collect AN people in ethical way..
Shhhh but actually the indoorcycling was good and I realised that Bodybump is BodyPump so sorry somehow I always thought that's bump instead of pump which has a meaning as well..
eating chocolate don't buy in Lidl the 200g finest dark chocolate because it's soo good you can't stop eating it..Fortunately I started to eat it on friday so it's ok. And anyways tomorrow I'm going at 10:15 to the gym..
Tuesday, February 21
it starts now
I have to choose a topic I'm going to write about but actually I don't know what. And I have 20 days to figure out and write 10 pages.
And of course I should find some books, articles for my home university essay too.
I know it doesn't help if I'm writing it out of my mind how stupid I am and how bocked my brain. Still I want to write it down.
And it's really scarry that I was nearly falling asleep today, I tried to listen to the teacher but it was like so boring I couldn't understand anything because his words just hited my ears and than nothing left to my mind.
Maybe I'm just about to start to panic. But I really have to do it!
So today, ok it sounds stupic I just checked the time and it's 11.30 so I would say I'm not going to sleep until I get the topic.
It sounds confusing I just feel anger and hopeless, WHY AM I SO DUMB??
Friday, February 17
Jump ,jump, jump..
I like this song, because on sunday when I went to Interval Body we had to jump pretend like we had jumipg-rope in our hands and we had to do it hard! today again and I just have to work out. Ok I eat enough chocolate to work out! Because Fazer chocolate makes u become addict. Wednesday I went to indoor cycling and it was awesome, but my butt hurts so much because of the seat :( Oh and there was he song I've got a soul but I'm not a soldier actually in the end so I couldn't sing really much because I was so tired, but I just kept smiling in front of the instructor and she didn't know what happened with me :)
Anyways if everything ge well I have to deal again with Anorexia, because on the Social Representation course we have to write a research plan about an optional topic+ Soc Rep.
It seems that the Russian girl is really interested in it, because she has at home AN clients and the Peruvian's gonna join us because I told her so :)
Now i feel like even if I have to learn a lot, and work with it, since I'm interested in it it'll be at least a bit fun.
Tuesday, February 14
Agency
Yesterday when I had to go home from the gym i felt so helpless that the first thing came to my mind was that I should be an agent. And on Tuesday I have my Agency and social psychology class, and we were talking about agent's actions agency and outcomes. So I was thinking I'm anything but agent. Than I thaught I'm gonna run bac, say nothing just go to the gym, but I knew that's weird and anyway the cours started allready. So my agentic action was nothing but big crap.
When I got home I started to check what I could do instead of the missed class, and I found a class for tomorrow but it was fully booked. So I wishd maybe someone's gonna cancel and I can book it. At least around 8pm it happened today, so tomorrow I'll try something really new with the same trainer.
Btw today's course was boooooring, and we got tons of homework: Go through the slides and compare the 3 pictures "Take a look at the three slides below. Reflect upon your experience during the course: is there a difference between what see now and what you saw in the first time?
Go through your notes and all of the lecture slides and return to the three slides once more. "
thanx very much I ain't gonna do this..actually I will but still..
And I got home after 8pm but after 10 minutes we went to a Valentine's day concert(s) to a bar. It was good (more like ok).
Did you know that in Estonia Valentin's day celebrated as Friend's day?? it's awesome :)
When I got home I started to check what I could do instead of the missed class, and I found a class for tomorrow but it was fully booked. So I wishd maybe someone's gonna cancel and I can book it. At least around 8pm it happened today, so tomorrow I'll try something really new with the same trainer.
Btw today's course was boooooring, and we got tons of homework: Go through the slides and compare the 3 pictures "Take a look at the three slides below. Reflect upon your experience during the course: is there a difference between what see now and what you saw in the first time?
Go through your notes and all of the lecture slides and return to the three slides once more. "
thanx very much I ain't gonna do this..actually I will but still..
And I got home after 8pm but after 10 minutes we went to a Valentine's day concert(s) to a bar. It was good (more like ok).
Did you know that in Estonia Valentin's day celebrated as Friend's day?? it's awesome :)
Monday, February 13
Sh*t happens
Today I woke up with the knowledge of this day's gonna be bad. ( i would say in a different way but it's not really nice)
I started to read the article again, I found the social representation slide from last year in hungarian, and it was the same chinese like in english.
Than I went to have lunch to Musikkilato, the nicest Unicafé, I think that was the best part of my day.
After that I got home finished the reading and I still didn't now what to comment about it, so I started to crochet my hat.It'll be a really nice oversized beanie hat btw.Too bad that I have to count before the increasings.
And than I went to bodybump and immediatly came back because i was the there at 6.55pm and it starts at 6:55pm, but it turned out that there is safety standard and they can't let you in, so better be there 10 minutes before the cours starts. Ok it happens sh*t happens, but still I'm really angry, this is one of my favourite training and the instructur is really funny and so on. Oh and I was "not" late, because I was writing my finnish homework, and now psychologically underpinned I would think what happened is the finnish course's fault.
When i got homeI commented finally, then I started to crochet and watch curb your enthusiasm, and I realised that there are some human beings they are really like Larry.
I don't know why but I would rather skip tomorrows class. I know that threre are some people I can talk to tham, but what if the teacher's gonna ask something? On the one hand I swear I read all the articels, on the other hand I swear that I can't really remember 4 of them. Again sh*t happens. And 2 weeks and I have to write my 8to10 pages essay. Good for me.
I started to read the article again, I found the social representation slide from last year in hungarian, and it was the same chinese like in english.
Than I went to have lunch to Musikkilato, the nicest Unicafé, I think that was the best part of my day.
After that I got home finished the reading and I still didn't now what to comment about it, so I started to crochet my hat.It'll be a really nice oversized beanie hat btw.Too bad that I have to count before the increasings.
And than I went to bodybump and immediatly came back because i was the there at 6.55pm and it starts at 6:55pm, but it turned out that there is safety standard and they can't let you in, so better be there 10 minutes before the cours starts. Ok it happens sh*t happens, but still I'm really angry, this is one of my favourite training and the instructur is really funny and so on. Oh and I was "not" late, because I was writing my finnish homework, and now psychologically underpinned I would think what happened is the finnish course's fault.
When i got homeI commented finally, then I started to crochet and watch curb your enthusiasm, and I realised that there are some human beings they are really like Larry.
I don't know why but I would rather skip tomorrows class. I know that threre are some people I can talk to tham, but what if the teacher's gonna ask something? On the one hand I swear I read all the articels, on the other hand I swear that I can't really remember 4 of them. Again sh*t happens. And 2 weeks and I have to write my 8to10 pages essay. Good for me.
Sunday, February 12
Friday, February 10
I mean..
yesterday i could finish an other 50g of wool. But after 5 sec I realized that this other glove is far too big. So i started to destroy it. Now I finishd the destruction. So I have to start crocheting again. I can't read it's jut like I know I have to and I feel I really don't want to read. I mean I wanna read my Murakami book which I started when I arriwed here 5 weeks ago and since than I didn't have a chance to read.
And I really wanna watch some TV shoves like there is the one named "Curb your enthusiasm" I heard about it and it sounds like really interesting, and i already dowloaded I just want to start to watch it.
So the thing is: I'm gonna read a few more pages, than im gonna start to watch it.
I meant it.
And I really wanna watch some TV shoves like there is the one named "Curb your enthusiasm" I heard about it and it sounds like really interesting, and i already dowloaded I just want to start to watch it.
So the thing is: I'm gonna read a few more pages, than im gonna start to watch it.
I meant it.
Monday, February 6
I'm not sure why I'm writing it now.
Xylimax. I hope that make sense at least for 1-2 person because I knew that's some kind of sweetener. It's really common here, but in my opinion this is the same at home, we just call it sugarfree chewing gum..
I should learn Finnish but somehow I always 'have to' do something else instead of it. But not now. That's why I'm gonna finish (HAHA FINISH FINNISH) this record later.
So that's it I don't know what should I write.
Xylimax. I hope that make sense at least for 1-2 person because I knew that's some kind of sweetener. It's really common here, but in my opinion this is the same at home, we just call it sugarfree chewing gum..
I should learn Finnish but somehow I always 'have to' do something else instead of it. But not now. That's why I'm gonna finish (HAHA FINISH FINNISH) this record later.
So that's it I don't know what should I write.
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