Ok at certain points enugh is enough. My stomach hurts. I need real food! Sorry that I'm notwilling to eat 6 days old food that contains meet! I know it's my bad but I think everyone who knows me can imagine how much food could I get if I was cooking potatos for lunch and nothing else! (for those who may not know: I HATE boiled potatos since I was 4!)
And this stupidity that goes on 3 days ago..
I do thin if someone has a problem 1. with me : SAY IT! 2. if I'm not included in the hatred, then don't look at me like you wanna throw up!
I don't really get it. It's maybe because of the wheather ( it's still snowing 2 days ago) or because as one of my friend described: no is just Finnish women are crazy sometimes, so don't worry.. however I wanna dissapear right now until everything is going to be normal!
And this nice gesture of inviting me to the dinner is permanently missing!
And don't get me wrong if it seems I'm just complaining and whining about everything, of course I have many good thing in my life. Apparently nowadays out of the house, but it's all right as long as I'm not forced to stay home!
And I really hate being someone whom you only say Hey, or Bye if you're feeling it (nowadays- never). And I keep on saying those stuff even though I'm feeling I would rather just leave.
And again hopefully it's only temporary so there might be a chance that I'll be able to feel myself human again!
Friday, November 30
Wednesday, November 14
"We'll be bestest friends foreverest if you just keep your face out of my face"
I can always lean something new. Well the fact is that maybe I shouldn't try so hard. It's kind of my weakness that sometimes I really like someone as a friend and she/he acts the sam way but then suddenly dissapears and then I'm trying to reach by sending hey, zup? letters (well actually I'm talking about only one case that happened now) one a week, but no answer still.. And then suddenly the person writes that she didn't feel too open up o'clock way and I was too pushy.. Well I can understand, but I think it would have been fair if she didn't act like she sais everything she means when we met earlier all the time.. so now I'm a bit confused..Anyways I told her that I'm sorry it wasn't on purpose and if we could still meet sometime?
Well, let's see what she's gonna say or not say.. But I know that I don't wanna lose her because one of the coolest person I met.. But now the only thing is I can do, that let her decide what she wants. And the quote is from Scrubs, and when I heard this from Dr. Cox saying to Nooby I realised basically this is what she ment..
I can always lean something new. Well the fact is that maybe I shouldn't try so hard. It's kind of my weakness that sometimes I really like someone as a friend and she/he acts the sam way but then suddenly dissapears and then I'm trying to reach by sending hey, zup? letters (well actually I'm talking about only one case that happened now) one a week, but no answer still.. And then suddenly the person writes that she didn't feel too open up o'clock way and I was too pushy.. Well I can understand, but I think it would have been fair if she didn't act like she sais everything she means when we met earlier all the time.. so now I'm a bit confused..Anyways I told her that I'm sorry it wasn't on purpose and if we could still meet sometime?
Well, let's see what she's gonna say or not say.. But I know that I don't wanna lose her because one of the coolest person I met.. But now the only thing is I can do, that let her decide what she wants. And the quote is from Scrubs, and when I heard this from Dr. Cox saying to Nooby I realised basically this is what she ment..
Sunday, November 4
Well I don't really have any idea about how life should be.
Right now is really good. I work so I earn some money and I don't have to worry about that I can't survive. On the other hand I'm trying to save up money for the nex years, in this case is not that funny..
But since I stardted to write this post yesterday and I forget it, now I'll write about 2 other thing that actually happened yesterday. WARNING! no offence and it'll be quite long..
First of all, the "vainajainpäivä" the all souls' day is on the first Saturday in Finland. Ok no problem, and in a way I was aware of the fact that the public transportations should work as it always happens on holydas you should check the sunday timetable. Well I haven't. So I was about to go to Meilahti to my regular Saturday 10 o'clock combat class, but at the train stop I had to realize that there is no way I could get there in 30 min by bike.. I was totally shocked and stood on the plattform for about 5 min, then I decided to go to Viiki, because I could remember there is a combat around 10. And I forget the most important thing IT WAS RAINING +MISTY!
Whatsoever I went to Viiki ( got lost 3 times on the way there, but finally an alcoholic man told me the right way in his really fast and mumbling Finnish, good that I could somehow get the most important parts of it!
So when I got there I was totally WET and muddy ( luckily I put change of clothes for the return trip).
Then comes a really interestin thing: the instructor was at first sight an 67 year alcoholic+chain-smoker..But then she was talking to me during the class in English and gave 2 really good advice what I should do better, so it was good. An then I asked her, how does she know I'm not Finnish, and she told me she heard me talking upstairs, so am I from the States?- Again, nowadays everyone who has not heard me speak in Finnish( because then they're surprised why I switch the languge at some point to English..) they ask me from which part of the States I came..
So afterall I stayed for the sreching and it was really good, so then I just had to bike home and "relax".
I the evening I went to my French friend's place which is in Pohjois-Haaga. There was her Japanies friend too so we had fun, so it was good, but then (again the Sunday timetable) the last train left in front of us. Ok for them it wasn't really a problem, because they could take any bus to the citycenter, but I was by bike. So I told then not to worry I'll bike home. My orignal plan was t obike to the city center and from there home because then the 16 km would have been on a way I know.. Just the fist 8,5 till the center is a way I only knew by bus and it goes on the highway so no bikelines.. Then-and here comes the "story" some guys told me that yeah, you just follw this road ( after 200m it was already a junction)and then I see Mannerheimintie and ofc I would have known how to continue from there.. Well, INSTEAD of it I got lost in an other junction in the middle of the forest and I almost paniced, so I called Petra, and she was still awake so she cheked me which way to go.. Then I asked a loads of other drunken people, and none of them was living there so it was interesting. Finally I saw the trucks, so I felt really happy, but then there was not the same bikeline I rememberd. In the middle of the forest in heavy fog, I started to bike in the direction I thought it could be what I'm looking for and when I saw the bridge suddenly I become happy and relieved so I called Petra again not to worry I know the way home is just 6 more kms so is ok.
When I got home I texted to Charlène that I got home in one piece and btw happy Bday :D
Alltogether I biked 31km.. and most of them drunken..
Right now is really good. I work so I earn some money and I don't have to worry about that I can't survive. On the other hand I'm trying to save up money for the nex years, in this case is not that funny..
But since I stardted to write this post yesterday and I forget it, now I'll write about 2 other thing that actually happened yesterday. WARNING! no offence and it'll be quite long..
First of all, the "vainajainpäivä" the all souls' day is on the first Saturday in Finland. Ok no problem, and in a way I was aware of the fact that the public transportations should work as it always happens on holydas you should check the sunday timetable. Well I haven't. So I was about to go to Meilahti to my regular Saturday 10 o'clock combat class, but at the train stop I had to realize that there is no way I could get there in 30 min by bike.. I was totally shocked and stood on the plattform for about 5 min, then I decided to go to Viiki, because I could remember there is a combat around 10. And I forget the most important thing IT WAS RAINING +MISTY!
Whatsoever I went to Viiki ( got lost 3 times on the way there, but finally an alcoholic man told me the right way in his really fast and mumbling Finnish, good that I could somehow get the most important parts of it!
So when I got there I was totally WET and muddy ( luckily I put change of clothes for the return trip).
Then comes a really interestin thing: the instructor was at first sight an 67 year alcoholic+chain-smoker..But then she was talking to me during the class in English and gave 2 really good advice what I should do better, so it was good. An then I asked her, how does she know I'm not Finnish, and she told me she heard me talking upstairs, so am I from the States?- Again, nowadays everyone who has not heard me speak in Finnish( because then they're surprised why I switch the languge at some point to English..) they ask me from which part of the States I came..
So afterall I stayed for the sreching and it was really good, so then I just had to bike home and "relax".
I the evening I went to my French friend's place which is in Pohjois-Haaga. There was her Japanies friend too so we had fun, so it was good, but then (again the Sunday timetable) the last train left in front of us. Ok for them it wasn't really a problem, because they could take any bus to the citycenter, but I was by bike. So I told then not to worry I'll bike home. My orignal plan was t obike to the city center and from there home because then the 16 km would have been on a way I know.. Just the fist 8,5 till the center is a way I only knew by bus and it goes on the highway so no bikelines.. Then-and here comes the "story" some guys told me that yeah, you just follw this road ( after 200m it was already a junction)and then I see Mannerheimintie and ofc I would have known how to continue from there.. Well, INSTEAD of it I got lost in an other junction in the middle of the forest and I almost paniced, so I called Petra, and she was still awake so she cheked me which way to go.. Then I asked a loads of other drunken people, and none of them was living there so it was interesting. Finally I saw the trucks, so I felt really happy, but then there was not the same bikeline I rememberd. In the middle of the forest in heavy fog, I started to bike in the direction I thought it could be what I'm looking for and when I saw the bridge suddenly I become happy and relieved so I called Petra again not to worry I know the way home is just 6 more kms so is ok.
When I got home I texted to Charlène that I got home in one piece and btw happy Bday :D
Alltogether I biked 31km.. and most of them drunken..
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