There are things WE ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT!
this is that my roomate doesn't understand..
So now we don't talk at least I wont talk about this thing.
It's my own business.
So now go on study!
I don't wann abe the stupidest in the world!( well actually it's maybe not possible if we take this subject, but at east I can try..)

oh yes here I am again.
I got a 3 for the Agency course I just checked it now.. anyways ofc I'm a bit pset but I don't know why?! I know that my essay wasn't so good, so why would I expect a better grade? The thing is that my social representation of grade:3 is really bad! I would rather get a 2 but 3???? So I hope that not everybody thinks that I'm so stupid blah blah.. And yes I am struggling with myself..
Ok I'll go to sauna now I'ts maybe better or not?

finnish

Finnish people: "You just have to push the button to open the box." Of course first you  have to find the button. But it's way too interesting that for real, the women have to do the first step/push. Honestly I more like it this way, but on the other hand it scares me. What if..?
Yes this was my super smart idea about finnish guys (and finnish people).
On thursday we had a dinner together with a Japanese 3 Mexican and a Spanish, they are all designers, so it was pretty interesting being there as a psychologist and listening to tham how close actually is what they study and what I study here at the social psychology department..
Nowadays I'm too lazy, I wrote my essays, I went here and there( photo museum, IKEA, dinner here and there, Sauna, and gym everyday) But I didn't do anything for the home research I suppose to end till june..
My ankle hurts a LOT I never had a problem with it, so it's quite new for me, and I really hate that I have to skip some of the jumping part of the training, and usually I do it on one eg, so now I'm just starting to be afraid of that I'm gonna have differnt size of leggs..
I wanna read, but somehow I can't I don't know why. Maybe now I'm gonna prepare something for lunch than I'll read. will see

     

love of gym

SO the thing is I wrote 2 pages in 5 days. Yeas shit happens. But if I keep on doing like this I'll be ready with my essay on time. And the other thing is that I'm doing everything but writing. E.g. today I went to the gym not just to bodypump but right before it for trunk training. And tmrw I'll go at am to cycle to Meihlati. It means I have to wake up at 5:30 am. Getting crazy but no worries it happens when I wave to do something important. At least I can feel that I'm alive because my muscles..

Panic

I started to write my essay. the front page is nearly done only the titel missing.
And I created 5 sentences as a text. Yeah on the way hom I met with the Greeks and they said if I'll write everyday 5 sentences I can finish in  year the 10 pages. Actually it's true. But I don't think when the teacher told us  if someone won't be ready with the essay until the deadline pls contatct him" meant that u can tell him it'll take 336 more days to finish it..
And ofc there is some problem with the researchplan: we didn't think about the etical part of thehow to coect participants as anorexic persons.. Come on, it's a researchPLAN we don't even have to do it, and anyways we  could collect AN people in ethical way..
Shhhh but actually the indoorcycling was good and I realised that Bodybump is BodyPump so sorry somehow I always thought that's bump instead of pump which has a meaning as well..
eating chocolate don't buy in Lidl the 200g finest dark chocolate because it's soo good you can't stop eating it..Fortunately I started to eat it on friday so it's ok. And anyways tomorrow I'm going at 10:15 to the gym..

it starts now

I have to choose a topic I'm going to write about but actually I don't know what. And I have 20 days to figure out and write 10 pages.

And of course I should find some books, articles for my home university essay too.

I know it doesn't help if I'm writing it out of my mind how stupid I am and how bocked my brain. Still I want to write it down.

And it's really scarry that I was nearly falling asleep today, I tried to listen to the teacher but it was like so boring I couldn't understand anything because his words just hited my ears and than nothing left to my mind.

Maybe I'm just about to start to panic. But I really have to do it!

So today, ok it sounds stupic I just checked the time and it's 11.30 so I would say I'm not going to sleep until I get the topic.

It sounds confusing I just feel anger and hopeless, WHY AM I SO DUMB??

Jump ,jump, jump..

I like this song, because on sunday when I went to Interval Body we had to jump pretend like we had jumipg-rope in our hands and we had to do it hard! today again and I just have to work out. Ok I eat enough chocolate to work out! Because Fazer chocolate makes u become addict. Wednesday I went to indoor cycling and it was awesome, but my butt hurts so much because of the seat :( Oh and there was he song I've got a soul but I'm not a soldier actually in the end so I couldn't sing really much because I was so tired, but I just kept smiling in front of the instructor and she didn't know what happened with me :)

Anyways if everything ge well I have to deal again with Anorexia, because on the Social Representation course we have to write a research plan about an optional topic+ Soc Rep.

It seems that the Russian girl is really interested in it, because she has at home AN clients and the Peruvian's gonna join us because I told her so :)

Now i feel like even if I have to learn a lot, and work with it, since I'm interested in it it'll be at least a bit fun.