stupidity at it's worst

Today I woke up and I saw a really good friend of mines blog. Well what she doesn't know is that she made a post that she later either deleted or just put it invisible but because I  have subscription somehow my Gmail message showed what was the original post. And I don't understand why she deleted, anyways it's not my business but the fact is that it really made me angry. I mean not my friend but the situation she was writing about. There is a man who's insulting her time to time with really rude messages and acts like he's the head of the non-existent maffia. What this man is doing is absoluteley disgusting and has no reason to do it. Not only once he used verbal abuse, tried to frighten and intimidate her based on -how surprising- NOTHING. And now he just excluded my friend from a Facebook group that was supposed to ment for every Hungarian who lives in Finland. And the thing is that not only she got excluded, now everyone who likes her blog or is friend with her on Facebook gets the chance not to be a group member. I mean I don't care if I can't be in the group because anyways I didn't wanted to be and I guess in the future as well my opinion will be the same, BUT I'm sure there are many people they want to be in the group because of many various reasons and I think -I KNOW-he doesn't have a right to delete people just because they're my friend's friends or readers or just simply in contact with her. And here I ask what can she or the other people do against him/situation??

Ps. At this point I'm feeling like it would be nice  if I'd have many readers to spread this situaton but on the other hand I feel safe with my audience because I know more or less who they are.

Things

Last weekend I was home alone with my sister.. Well I guess we should never study together again in the same place at the same time because we always have to say or comment on something that is much more interesting than studying.
But at least we could talk a bit so it was good, and we baked some rainbow-like muffins.
And here I am in Pécs since Monday and I can still say that I'm a really good friend of mine. Plus my room is more than crowded  I have my bike, a rack for drying my clothes some empty bottles on the floor..
And the Hunger game is on. I mean it's not like I'm not eating it's just that I'm so lazy to cook or go to the shop to buy some food, so during the weekend the cooked meal is not really happening. But today I'll try to boil at least some potatos. (yeah it makes me feel Finland..)
And the fact is that I'm still missing Helsinki!
I wanna go back every day, so I guess this feeling is pretty stable and the good part is that every time I feel really upset I'm thinking about the time I have to spend here so I can go back to Finland..

So after the 3rd week of the University I can state that I'm my very best friend.

Ok just to make it clear, I have friends other than myself. But I feel super weird being again in Pécs. At the University I feel like a real Finnish student, just go in sit, listen to the class and leave without socialising not even a bit. Unless my friend is there. Then there's always the possibility, that we can gossip and make fun of others. And maybe it's a really rude conclusion but all the colleagues are GEEKS. There's one girl she's somehow really irritaing, but on the other hand she's really usefull when I'm at the boxing class and I need to imagine someone to punch. So if I'll be really good in boxing I might have to say thank you to her. 

Yes this is something I started: Boxing. So far I was 2 times on training and both of the times. It's not that easy as it seems but hopefully I'll get better in it, and then it'll less complicated and more fun.

Just for the record: I'm doing it only for fun and I don't have the slightest need to do it as a profession. Plus moneywise it's the best training I can do 3 times a week 1,5hour training I guess it's more than good and the price equals with 10liter milk for a moth..

But so back to the University. I have a couple of courses I really enjoy, because they're interesting and sometimes even funny, on the other hand I have 1 course that is human genetics and I swear I tried to focus on what the teacher was explaining but the only thing I could remember is  that Angelina Jolie amputated both of her breasts because she had a high chance for breast Cancer. 

And there is one course I have in English which I find the most useful class because it's aim is to improve our oral presentation skills. Luckily both of the PHD student teachers speak fluent normal English (normal means the way they speak).

And here I am with 2 researches to write. Getting a bit super antisocial and already realised how uneffective is my working style..

I WANNA GO BACK TO FINLAND! Nyt heti!

not good

I have been thinking last night.

And here's what I could figure out- there are 2 options and I think I need to choose but the problem is it's not that easy.

1. I'll go to Hungary for 11 month and finish my BA and it would cost a fortune and I'm not sure how happy I can be there but yeah I'm kinda use to it that really nobody cares about my feelings I'm the only one.. And that would be a waste of time of my life because I would never ever do anything with that paper if i can get it + I would need to get from somewhere money after it to be able to come back to Finland. 

2. Since I got a job offer and it seems it's still on I could stay and get payed (it doesn't really matter how badly) I could get my Finnish skills to a much better level and do the BodyPump instructor training course. So I wouldn't get any psychology BA paper but I could get an instructor license. And save up money for the following year if I get in to a study place and I could afford the living on my own more or less. Not talking about I would be happy and feel good.

But here's the thing I did the first 2 years of the psychology so if I quit now than all the money that was invested in it would seem just a huge amount of wasted money. So the guilt is huge.

 I hate this whole thing and I'm really afraid that I'd become a homeless and I really don't want it. Because obviously I won't stay in Hungary but again if I don't have money I can't live here either so I would need to work again before being able to start my studies here. And I don't feel  too young to waste all my time. And it seems I'm not that smart because my final exams I had 3 years ago would worth less than nothing nowdays in Hungary. 

Here it's still good.

Feels like rain

So today in Finland the school officially started.
Yesterday Aino asked me if I could come too to her opening ceremony in the German school, and of course I said yes in case her parents agree as well.
It was super fun-everything in German and Finnish and I got on the list of who're aloud to pick her up from the school..
And suddenly it hit me: I have only 2 more weeks and then 11 months in Hungary. It sounds like a survival camp, but I know I wanna come back for good so it keeps me still alive in the emotional sense..
I'm thinking almost every day that c'mon I'm so young why do I need to finish the psychology BA but then I remember that if I would take an other gap year I wouldn't be able to finish it later because then my student status would expire.. sooo stupid.. and it's not really the reason because I would't care about it but the problem is that it costs so much that now I need to finish it.. Although on the other hand if I wouldn't finish my studies than that money that I could save up from this coming last year I could invest in something else here.. I hate this really hate it but it's decided and I need to do it.
And an other topic: so I had my birthday last Thursday and wow 22..whatever who cares but it was my first real celebration..But and I'm complaining again I was expecting from a friend to write and she still hasn't done it and I know she must have seen it on facebook or wherever and now I'm confused again that fuck it why?? how come we meet 2 days earlier and 2  and 2 earlier days and she says nothing??
Well here I am and as every other human being I have feelings too and it's super hard to pretend everything is OK when it isn't!
So now my 2 last week.. I'm gonna try to enjoy it as much as possible.. And yes sports a lot! Finally I really don't care because it makes me super happy and somehow now there are instructors telling that I'm coming or coming to the class it feels funny weird and supergood at the same time and the thing is that I'm just the annoying costumer so I don't know after 1,5 year how come one of them wants me now to come or come . Because I understand the other 2 doesn't know me juat 5 /2 moth ago that can be ok to be able to deal with me but 1.5 year??.

outu lintu as a weird bird. Yesterday in the sauna after training I met a girl who told me I can use this expression in Finnish for a weird person. Well, I guess I should use it for myself: Mä oon outu lintu..
in Finnish the letter 'ä' is pronounced as an 'a-e' mixture. I was joking about it yesterday because the instructor was pronouncing it so clearly that if she would tell me a text that I should have been writing down I guess I could have done it correctly. I asked her after class how she says it and then I asked if I'm telling it good and she and 2 other Finnish person told me that for them it sounds correct so I shouldn't be worrying about my pronunciation..

Today I was thinking about next year and that I don't really wanna meet anyone new except my friends I have because they're good and I'm really not a social person. For sure it'll be super weird to speak only in Hungarian so I'll try to get into contact with the Erasmus students. At least for sure they won't speak too much in Hungarian.. As for Finnish I'll try to skype, though I have no idea whom and how- but will see.
well I still have a month to think about it.
And nowadays I'm really pissed off some people. There is this instructor who -I have no idea why- thinks that she can do anything, meaning she can stand wherever she wants even if someone was standing already in a spot she just jumps 5 cm next to or in front of the other. And today one of her instructor friend came and she jumped the same way but in front of me. When she was looking for a spot to stay she looked  at me and I was just about to go a bit backwards (because I didn't wanted to kick her during class) she told me to stay there because it was originally my spot, so at least she understands that there are other human beings on planet not only she and her friends. (anyways I let her stay after this kindness next to the rude instructor and I was hoping she would kick her..) Well next time if I'll see this rude instructor for sure I'll stand next to her but so close that if she would comment on it it'll be enough to say: "thank you master I learned this from you!"

the last work-day

Well I thought tomorrow is my last working day but the father told me during lunch today is my last day. If so, then I'll take it easy tomorrow and just relax if the weather is good, maybe go to the beach meet some friends if so..
But it's not that official so I didn't start planning yet.
The last few weeks were the same old-same old; I was the kindergarten and today I managed to play for the first time in my life with small toys. Ok it could have been so because the Muumit toys are my favourite and I can do different voices so more or less I could even enjoy it, but the thing is that still I find it boring.
I really loved those evenings we were out in Hietsu beach on Saturday I was swimming in it, yesterday we acted like 16 years old teenagers, whatsoever it was fun! :D
the last 2 Fridays I was in Stadikka springboard diving, my leg is still a bit greenish from the bad dive but it's ok.
Wow,  I just realised that basically I can't write anything interesting now.