Joulu/Christmas

Very well!
This year I already got the A best christmas present from one of my Finnish friend, she gave me a christmas tree ornament, a ball and Pikku Myy from Muumi on it! And how come, my family agreed: Yes I am just like Pikku Myy! :D

The funniest and most surprising present I got it from my Sister: she gave me a Finnish mug, my favourite one, and the funny part about this story is that I was home 2 days before Christmas after half a year of being in (ok alltogether almost a year) Finland and what I get is a Finnish mug :D But I love it!! too bad, now I can only use it for 12 more days, but the lucky part is that in Helsinki the family has the same mugs!!

new running shoes

indescribable

Ok at certain points enugh is enough. My stomach hurts. I need real food! Sorry that I'm notwilling to eat 6 days old food that contains meet! I know it's my bad but I think everyone who knows me can imagine how much food could I get if I was cooking potatos for lunch and nothing else! (for those who may not know: I HATE boiled potatos since I was 4!)
And this stupidity that goes on 3 days ago..
I do thin if someone has a problem 1. with me : SAY IT! 2. if I'm not included in the hatred, then don't look at me like you wanna throw up!
I don't really get it. It's maybe because of the wheather ( it's still snowing 2 days ago) or because as one of my friend described: no is just Finnish women are crazy sometimes, so don't worry.. however I wanna dissapear right now until everything is going to be normal!
And this nice gesture of inviting me to the dinner is permanently missing!
And don't get me wrong if it seems I'm just complaining and whining about everything, of course I have many good thing in my life. Apparently nowadays out of the house, but it's all right as long as I'm not forced to stay home!
And I really hate being someone whom you only say Hey, or Bye if you're feeling it (nowadays- never). And I keep on saying those stuff even though I'm feeling I would rather just leave.
And again hopefully it's only temporary so there might be a chance that I'll be able to feel myself human again!

"We'll be bestest friends foreverest if you just keep your face out of my face"
I can always lean something new.  Well the fact is that maybe I shouldn't try so hard. It's kind of my weakness that sometimes I really like someone as a friend and she/he acts the sam way but then suddenly dissapears and then I'm trying to reach by sending hey, zup? letters (well actually I'm talking about only one case that happened now) one a week, but no answer still.. And then suddenly the person writes that she didn't feel too open up o'clock way and I was too pushy.. Well I can understand, but I think it would have been fair if she didn't act like she sais everything she means when we met earlier all the time.. so now I'm a bit confused..Anyways I told her that I'm sorry it wasn't on purpose and if we could still meet sometime?
Well, let's see what she's gonna say or not say.. But I know that I don't wanna lose her because one of the coolest person I met.. But now the only thing is I can do, that let her decide what she wants. And the quote is from Scrubs, and when I heard this from Dr. Cox saying to Nooby I realised basically this is what she ment..

Well I don't really have any idea about how life should be.
Right now is really good. I work so I earn some money and I don't have to worry about that I can't survive. On the other hand I'm trying to save up money for the nex years, in this case is not that funny..

But since I stardted to write this post yesterday and I forget it, now I'll write about 2 other thing that actually happened yesterday. WARNING! no offence and it'll be quite long..

First of all, the "vainajainpäivä" the all souls' day is on the first Saturday in Finland. Ok no problem, and in a way I was aware of the fact that the public transportations should work as it always happens on holydas you should check the sunday timetable. Well I haven't. So I was about to go to Meilahti to my regular Saturday 10 o'clock combat class, but at the train stop I had to realize that there is no way I could get there in 30 min by bike.. I was totally shocked and stood on the plattform for about 5 min, then I decided to go to Viiki, because I could remember there is a combat around 10. And I forget the most important thing IT WAS RAINING +MISTY!
Whatsoever I went to Viiki ( got lost 3 times on the way there, but finally an alcoholic man told me the right way in his really fast and mumbling Finnish, good that I could somehow get the most important parts of it!
So when I got there I was totally WET and muddy ( luckily I put change of clothes for the return trip).
Then comes a really interestin thing: the instructor was at first sight an 67 year alcoholic+chain-smoker..But then she was talking to me during the class in English and gave 2 really good advice what I should do better, so it was good. An then I asked her, how does she know I'm not Finnish, and she told me she heard me talking upstairs, so am I from the States?- Again, nowadays everyone who has not heard me speak in Finnish( because then they're surprised why I switch the languge at some point to English..) they ask me from which part of the States I came..
So afterall I stayed for the sreching and it was really good, so then I just had to bike home and "relax".

I the evening I went to my French friend's place which is in Pohjois-Haaga. There was her Japanies friend too so we had fun, so it was good, but then (again the Sunday timetable) the last train left in front of us. Ok for them it wasn't really a problem, because they could take any bus to the citycenter, but I was by bike. So I told then not to worry I'll bike home. My orignal plan was t obike to the city center and from there home because then the 16 km would have been on a way I know.. Just the fist 8,5 till the center is a way I only knew by bus and it goes on the highway so no bikelines.. Then-and here comes the "story" some guys told me that yeah, you just follw this road ( after 200m it was already a junction)and then I see Mannerheimintie and ofc I would have known how to continue from there.. Well, INSTEAD of it I got lost in an other junction in the middle of the forest and I almost paniced, so I called Petra, and she was still awake so she cheked me which way to go.. Then I asked a loads of other drunken people, and none of them was living there so it was interesting. Finally I saw the trucks, so I felt really happy, but then there was not the same bikeline I rememberd. In the middle of the forest in heavy fog, I started to bike in the direction I thought it could be what I'm looking for and when I saw the bridge suddenly I become happy and relieved so I called Petra again not to worry I know the way home is just 6 more kms so is ok.
When I got home I texted to  Charlène  that I got home in one piece and btw happy Bday :D
Alltogether I biked 31km.. and most of them drunken..

Lingonberry cookies

So finally I baked some cookies today.
I was feeling if I won't get any sweets I'm gonna get crazy, so I decided that according to the circumtances I'm going to bake whatever with a loads of sugar.
So I remembered I still have some lingonberry in the freezer I bought like 4 weeks ago.
And is really simple seriously if you don't have to go 2 km-s in your kitchen then in 5 min you can mix the dough really confortable.
I used an iittala glas that is I think is aruond 2 dl or a bit less.

Ingredients:
-1 glass flour
-1 glass oatflakes
-1 glass sugar
-1 glass lingonberry
-2 tsp coca powder
-1 vanilla sugar
-25g butter
-2 tbsp yogurt
-1 egg

So first preheat the oven to 200 degrees, then just mix everything together and make small  heaps aproximately 1 tbsp is 1.
And bake it 15-20 min.


ps. the glutenfree version is the same but with glutenfree ingredients..

C'est Bleu

I kinda feel like an "experienced fitness buff" according to UniSport's term.
And this is a really funny thing I think I just got use to it, that if I can I just go and do some sports. And it makes me feel really good.
This song is ofc scooter. What I think that scooter is really good for workout stuff (no wonder why you can find almost in every bodypump program 1 track)And it would be so cool if I could become an instructor, 1 week ago I wrote an email to a person who could help me about it, but as known she's really busy nowadays, so I'm still waiting for her answer.. Will see.

All right..

No basically nothing is all right and YES it is really good wining sometimes always!
And no, even though it would be better if a loads of things were better, but I don't want to have a perfect life.  I mean I know myself and I'm perfectly aware of what would happen if I had a perfect life. Probably it would start with eating disorder and a 3. degree so no! I'm fine with the normal eating habit and the 1 gap year I'm taking and trying to learn Finnish. And I'm absolutely sure about I have no idea what am I going to do in the future. Maybe I should study  something else and work as eg a Physico therapist. That sounds awful, but in a way you work with people, you don't have to write a lot, and yes is really bad that you have to learn anatomy again. Plus I really do want to instruct at the gym. Mostly BodyPump, but not the BodyCombat seems cool too. SO I just wish they're gonna need new instructors for Unisport so I could become one..
So my bike is broke, who knows when I'm gonna get the new(used) one. I'm gonna be poor again, until the next salary comes. But this is life, and if I won't have to pay any more extra things like this bike incident then I could save up some money for the future.
And I really hate when is Friday andI have no clue if I'm gonna do smtg or just nothing, but in this case I may    go alone to the city center and try to do something funny. But I have no idea waht could be funny alone.
Yes and what else, I'm kind of starting to understan why Ale is talking about the importance of using condoms, because now it's too late for those who have already some, and struggeling with raising them.( yes too bad when kids are awful, I can't tell the parents they forgot it 2 times..)
I should bake, but I didn't have time, and the thing is that the weekend is when the family is home, so I won't bake..
And it sucks if you don't have a valid student card!

I can't belive this!
Seriously, why?
Why do I always have to find all those guys who are gay?? And I don't have any problem with gays my problem is that nowaday all the boys I could like turns to be gay. So now I should fing somehow those guys who are looking for a girl and not for an other male! Maybe I'm exaggerating it a bit but sorry, this is how I feel at the moment. I really don't know how can I like all the gay guys and nt recognize it first that they're not straight. It sort of makes me feel like that I'm being a super creature because usually this never happens to anyone..
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Welcome to Pastaland!

Since I arrived to Helsinki (15 days ago) the food was so versatile that I ate basically  every day  pasta. I think now I can hate officially the pasta. I don't even want to see any kind of. The thing is that probably I'll for the next 11 month. But I'll survive it unless I'll turn into a pasta girl.
Go Pasta!

I would if I could but I can't so I shan't!
I have no idea why this phrase won't go out of my head. Curious but true.
So my last recipe I'm posting from Hungary before Helsinki again,  is the Peruvian-Hungarian Pisco sour. The orange one is with peach and the white one is with pineapple.
Ingredients:
-eggwhite 1/person
-lemon juice 0.5dl/ person
-grappa 0.5dl/person
-peach/pineapple 100g/person
-sugar (as it tastes good)
-ICE
Put everything to the blender and mix it for a while (30sec). After is ready you can put a hint of cinamon to the top.
BE CAREFUL, it's so good that it can be Dangerous!

This one is only with lemon juice

the ' lemon cake without bake'

Dad had his birthday last week, so I made him a cake. I really wanted to BAKE one, but I was taking into consideration the fact that I won't heat the oven in 38°C, because I didn't wanted to die before he gets home. Probably I wouldn't die but I really do hate this too hot weather.. so I just made a cake!

The dough:
-350g biscuit crumbs
-80g chocolate.
-30g butter
-2 tbsp sugar
- milk depending on the texture
-2 lemon zest+1juice
Melt the butter and chocolate then mix together all the ingredient and put it in a prefoiled baking pan.
The topping:
-500g cottage cheese
-200ml double cream
-3 lemon zest+juice
-2 bags of jelly powder
-70g sugar
-1 apricot compote
-100g cane sugar for the caramel
Cut the apricot on top of the dough. First whip the cream. Prepare the jelly with the lemon juice and half as much water as the instuction says. After is ready, mix the jelly and the cottage cheese the zest and the sugar. Then add the cream and mix it well and put it on the dough. Heat the cane sugar until it melts, then pour it on top of the cake, finally cover it and put into the frdge till the top gets hard enough to cut.


Happy Birthday Dad!

series

I don't mind writing about this topic because I absolutely agree with the fact that if someone watches way too much series, become an addict and plus live in a closed individual imaginary creepy world( which is by the way interesting and cool in it's own way).
Yes as you could imagine I've been watching too much series lately concerning the fact that I'm kind of alone. The 3 person I was waiting to call never did, I was the one again today who gave it a try. One of them was a 15sec conversation that yes I'm disturbing at the moment and they're hading today to the lake Balaton with A. So I called her according to the situation I could think of what would have happened ifI won't call her right away.. She was way nicer thank to the absence of disturbance. And she told me she'll call me nex week bye. Cool. I don't really know where we are and wher it's gonna continue. I really like them. And the thing is that yes I have other friends and a best friend but I don't wanna lose them even if there are things we never agree.( till now we always found a solution).
Back to the series. The Big Bang Theory is awesome. I just can't stop watching it, and it's bad because I should write my essay, but it's also too hot and I'm not in the mood. Whatever happend tomorrow I'll work on it 2 hours! Deal.-(I bought the gym card also for the motivation so I really have to write it!)

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I remember at Panka's we were randomly singing this song and now I just started again..acltually I have been thinking about my friends and I really like all of them, the only problem is that I feel like I am the pushy one who always calls them and if not then I can wait until something enormous happens and they call me. SO I started to feel maybe they don't really like me or they don't need me, I hope these are just some stupid thoughts and is not true. So I kind of learned the system they told me: You came home and you are the one who didn't call. (well I did actually) But I thought the phone has 2 end and why am I the one who has to call?? I won't. Now they were away on a festival so I'll wait till they call me and tell they're back, let's meet or something.

For the past few days all I could say was good-but. And the but means that I'm kind of sick which equals with I don't know yet what is my problem's name because today it was raining and Ididn't wanted to get wet so I decided to go tomorrow to the doctor. And the belly pain is not a sickness like sarcaidosis what House M.D. would say..

I just love this kitchen 

So according to the Good things: I went to Panka's summer cottage to Velence and we wisited Székesfehérvár where she showed me a Hungarian workout class and it was really surprisingly good. We aslo baked and talked a lot and it was all good. Oh and of course we played yatzi and speed(with card).

Aleja was here and my Sister wanted to suprise us: she picked some sour cherries and stoned them. Then I found the Swedish chocolate cake(Kladdkaka) recipe from Gisela (my sis' Swedish friend). Then of course I changed the recipe and then I was thinking that it would fit perfectly with the sour cherry. -And it did!

-200g sugar
-400g flour
-150g butter
-1dl milk
-3 eggs
-1 vanilla sugar
-5 tbsp cocoa powder
-2,5 cup sour cherry
Mix all the ingredients except the cherries, then pour it to a buttered bakin pan, Mix some sugar and flour together and deep the cherries into this mixture. Right after is done put them on top of the dough and put it to the preheated oven and bake it for about 30 min in 180°C.

"JaneFonda" turmix

After a Jane Fonda Advanced workout I decided to eat something that is high in protein. Then I remembered we have cottage cheese in the fridge and it's going to be perfect with some fruits from the garden and we also had some banana-trmix left after lunch.


-100g cottage cheese
-15 cherries
-1/2 apple
-1tsp honey
-50ml banana-turmix(banana+milk)
-1tsp lemon juice
Put everything to the blender and mix it for a couple of minutes.

failure-devaluation

I went to retake an exam today. Ok before I say anything these are the facts:
-I was in Helsinki  for this semester= I didn't attend on any of these -Hungarian courses
-This analytic developmental psychology is absolutely not a course you can learn  in 1,5 day.
-I didn't have the chance to write the test (which is absolutely 100% easier than write an essay)
-The teacher  is one of the most prestigious person in her field...
-I had 7 other exams.
-Usually I get a 5or 4!
So I went to take the exam on Tuesday, and it was an essay, -i failed, because is not enough if you just know something but not everything. Then today I retake the exam-not like I knew more then 2 days ago because on Wednesday I had an other exam- and because we were 4 it ws an oral exam. Ok we had to wait 40 min from 8am because she was chatting, then she started to ask only one of us , she got a 2, then she asked to say something in order to get a 2 , and it was WEIRD because she didn't even asked us only one little question from me then she said see you next er, it's not a problem  I can write a pumpkin to the ETR(the Uni system)" First of all I didn't even know the pumpkin is a metaphor of 1  or failure but now I learned something new!
The other thing is I really don't wanna come in September just to retake this.. And I alo know I'lll have to study a LOT in order to pass!
And now I have summer holiday! jepp -I just don't feel like I have any holiday I still have to write a 30 pages  research essay-

Good question-no asnwer

Spotted.
-the day you wake up and the first thing you can hear is the rain dropping on every possible surface nearby. The first and second thought is that you have to go to the University in 2 hours and take the first exam, then return and go again to take an other one....-if you survived both of them and you finally got home and start to study for the exam tomorrow you just get your result: FAIL. Even if you haven't cried a long time ago Today was the right day to do it. The only thing you can think about how is it possible??????? And after 6 hours you have the same question! The other exam, that I had to retake I passed and I also went to a hardcore spinnig at 8pm now I'm just studying and hopefully on Thursday morning I'll be able to get home after the exam! And Ale's coming.
-Why do all the cute guys have a girlfriend?-

Die hard

As I heared at one of my friend's street they're shooting the Die hard, but I don't really get it. If they really wanna make the movie why don't they come and record how I study? Tomorrow: 2 exames and I have no clue about any of them. I know it might absolutely sound stupid but even if I try, somehow I just can't focus on the reading and the bigger problem is that I should LEARN what I read. This is why I say the die hard movie related to me! And I haven't even mentioned yet, on wednesday I have an other exam and the only thing I know except the name of the course that I should study for that one ap.5000pages-sounds 2 minutes-

xoxo

Yes it's true, lately I haven't written a thing. I don't know what Freud would say about it.. and I do't even care.
I als kowI won't win the year's best blogger prize but I was just thiking maybe I should write this new entry, becase I wanna write. I don't even know what should I talk about. Maybe that since I came home everything is even more strange then it was before. First of all, if I get tired I just start to translate everything I tell frm english to hungarian. This is a really weird thig. I mean I just spoke englsh for 5 month it shouldn't have changed my brain.. Other strange thgs the air smells, here in Pécs it's ok, but the hurricanes and the tsunami that exist is really scary. Not to talk about yesterday when I went to the spinning by bike I thought I'm gonna die. It was a storm with rain and lightning. I was so afraid of "what if the lightning just hits my bike and I die?"-is it gonna take a long time, or I die fast?
 I just realized that in Helsinki there were NO LIGHTNINGS! Ok and the condition of roads......back pain.
Today I have an exam at 10am but all I can do is hope I'll pass!- I reas the slides couple of times, will see-
I'm listening to radio music I should get tired of it but somehow I feel is too much and getting annoying but yes there's someting tells my brain I need thid music in order to be alive now.
Food: the prices are extremly HIGH almost te same in Finlad it's kind of a shame.

But the thig is that Ale is coming on 14th Xaviera and the Tex.Mex. we'll meet on the 10th and today I skyped Poquito. Strange they're in  different places.differnt from me and frm Helsinki.
I wanna see them.

But now that I'm in Hungari hopefully I'll finish my exams, (all of them and succesfully)I wanna see my Friends!! So I wanna go home and not be in Pécs city sry I js can't like it, even if it seems nice somehow I don't find the nice thing in it. not to mention the weather that s*cks!

Finally I might have feelings but they are so hidden now that I can't feel them. And I know I'll be back in Helsinki at least from August! So it means  I'm in Hgary fo 2 moth out of them 2 weeks are ment to  (not literally) Rock the exams.. Then Ale for 10 days which I'm honestly  looking forward! Then I should spend some day in the library and write my essay.
Firs today I'm gonna pass!!!!
kiitos paljon jos voisit lue.
R.

En halua menä kotiin!

I do not want to go home! 
If it wasn't clear enough I'm sorry but it's aobut me and my feelings and I just can feel that it'd be relly nice if my family and friends could come here and I can stay!!
Ja anteeks en halunnut olla törkeä mutta EN HALUA MENNÄ UNKARISSA!!!!

There are things WE ARE NOT TALKING ABOUT!
this is that my roomate doesn't understand..
So now we don't talk at least I wont talk about this thing.
It's my own business.
So now go on study!
I don't wann abe the stupidest in the world!( well actually it's maybe not possible if we take this subject, but at east I can try..)

oh yes here I am again.
I got a 3 for the Agency course I just checked it now.. anyways ofc I'm a bit pset but I don't know why?! I know that my essay wasn't so good, so why would I expect a better grade? The thing is that my social representation of grade:3 is really bad! I would rather get a 2 but 3???? So I hope that not everybody thinks that I'm so stupid blah blah.. And yes I am struggling with myself..
Ok I'll go to sauna now I'ts maybe better or not?

finnish

Finnish people: "You just have to push the button to open the box." Of course first you  have to find the button. But it's way too interesting that for real, the women have to do the first step/push. Honestly I more like it this way, but on the other hand it scares me. What if..?
Yes this was my super smart idea about finnish guys (and finnish people).
On thursday we had a dinner together with a Japanese 3 Mexican and a Spanish, they are all designers, so it was pretty interesting being there as a psychologist and listening to tham how close actually is what they study and what I study here at the social psychology department..
Nowadays I'm too lazy, I wrote my essays, I went here and there( photo museum, IKEA, dinner here and there, Sauna, and gym everyday) But I didn't do anything for the home research I suppose to end till june..
My ankle hurts a LOT I never had a problem with it, so it's quite new for me, and I really hate that I have to skip some of the jumping part of the training, and usually I do it on one eg, so now I'm just starting to be afraid of that I'm gonna have differnt size of leggs..
I wanna read, but somehow I can't I don't know why. Maybe now I'm gonna prepare something for lunch than I'll read. will see

     

love of gym

SO the thing is I wrote 2 pages in 5 days. Yeas shit happens. But if I keep on doing like this I'll be ready with my essay on time. And the other thing is that I'm doing everything but writing. E.g. today I went to the gym not just to bodypump but right before it for trunk training. And tmrw I'll go at am to cycle to Meihlati. It means I have to wake up at 5:30 am. Getting crazy but no worries it happens when I wave to do something important. At least I can feel that I'm alive because my muscles..

Panic

I started to write my essay. the front page is nearly done only the titel missing.
And I created 5 sentences as a text. Yeah on the way hom I met with the Greeks and they said if I'll write everyday 5 sentences I can finish in  year the 10 pages. Actually it's true. But I don't think when the teacher told us  if someone won't be ready with the essay until the deadline pls contatct him" meant that u can tell him it'll take 336 more days to finish it..
And ofc there is some problem with the researchplan: we didn't think about the etical part of thehow to coect participants as anorexic persons.. Come on, it's a researchPLAN we don't even have to do it, and anyways we  could collect AN people in ethical way..
Shhhh but actually the indoorcycling was good and I realised that Bodybump is BodyPump so sorry somehow I always thought that's bump instead of pump which has a meaning as well..
eating chocolate don't buy in Lidl the 200g finest dark chocolate because it's soo good you can't stop eating it..Fortunately I started to eat it on friday so it's ok. And anyways tomorrow I'm going at 10:15 to the gym..

it starts now

I have to choose a topic I'm going to write about but actually I don't know what. And I have 20 days to figure out and write 10 pages.

And of course I should find some books, articles for my home university essay too.

I know it doesn't help if I'm writing it out of my mind how stupid I am and how bocked my brain. Still I want to write it down.

And it's really scarry that I was nearly falling asleep today, I tried to listen to the teacher but it was like so boring I couldn't understand anything because his words just hited my ears and than nothing left to my mind.

Maybe I'm just about to start to panic. But I really have to do it!

So today, ok it sounds stupic I just checked the time and it's 11.30 so I would say I'm not going to sleep until I get the topic.

It sounds confusing I just feel anger and hopeless, WHY AM I SO DUMB??

Jump ,jump, jump..

I like this song, because on sunday when I went to Interval Body we had to jump pretend like we had jumipg-rope in our hands and we had to do it hard! today again and I just have to work out. Ok I eat enough chocolate to work out! Because Fazer chocolate makes u become addict. Wednesday I went to indoor cycling and it was awesome, but my butt hurts so much because of the seat :( Oh and there was he song I've got a soul but I'm not a soldier actually in the end so I couldn't sing really much because I was so tired, but I just kept smiling in front of the instructor and she didn't know what happened with me :)

Anyways if everything ge well I have to deal again with Anorexia, because on the Social Representation course we have to write a research plan about an optional topic+ Soc Rep.

It seems that the Russian girl is really interested in it, because she has at home AN clients and the Peruvian's gonna join us because I told her so :)

Now i feel like even if I have to learn a lot, and work with it, since I'm interested in it it'll be at least a bit fun.

Agency

Yesterday when I had to go home from the gym i felt so helpless that the first thing came to my mind was that I should be an agent. And on Tuesday I have my Agency and social psychology class, and we were talking about agent's actions agency and outcomes. So I was thinking I'm anything but agent. Than I thaught I'm gonna run bac, say nothing just go to the gym, but I knew that's weird and anyway the cours started allready. So my agentic action was nothing but big crap.
When I got home I started to check what  I could do instead of the missed class, and I found a class for tomorrow but it was fully booked. So I wishd maybe someone's gonna cancel and I can book it. At least around 8pm it happened today, so tomorrow I'll try something really new with the same trainer.
Btw today's course was boooooring, and we got tons of homework: Go through the slides and compare the 3 pictures "Take a look at the three slides below. Reflect upon your experience during the course: is there a difference between what see now and what you saw in the first time?
Go through your notes and all of the lecture slides and return to the three slides once more. "
thanx very much I ain't gonna do this..actually I will but still..
And I got home after 8pm but after 10 minutes we went to a Valentine's day concert(s) to a bar. It was good (more like ok).
Did you know that in Estonia Valentin's day celebrated as Friend's day?? it's awesome :)

Sh*t happens

Today I woke up with the knowledge of this day's gonna be bad. ( i would say in a different way but it's not really nice)
I started to read the article again, I found the social representation slide from last year in hungarian, and it was the same chinese like in english.
Than I went to have lunch to Musikkilato, the nicest Unicafé, I think that was the best part of my day.
After that I got home  finished the reading and I still didn't now what to comment about it, so I started to crochet my hat.It'll be a really nice oversized beanie hat btw.Too bad that I have to count before the increasings.
And than I went to bodybump and immediatly came back because i was the there at 6.55pm and it starts at 6:55pm, but it turned out that there is safety standard and they can't let you in, so better be there 10 minutes before the cours starts. Ok it happens sh*t happens, but still I'm really angry, this is one of my favourite training and the instructur is really funny and so on. Oh and I was "not" late, because I was writing my finnish homework, and now psychologically underpinned I would think what happened is the finnish course's fault.
When i got homeI commented finally, then I started to crochet and watch curb your enthusiasm, and I realised that there are some human beings they are really like Larry.
I don't know why but I would rather skip tomorrows class. I know that threre are some people I can talk to tham, but what if the  teacher's gonna ask something? On the one hand  I swear I read all the articels, on the other hand I swear that I can't really remember 4 of them. Again sh*t happens. And 2 weeks and I have to write my 8to10 pages essay. Good for me.

painted by Peruvain :)

the peruvian came to Helsinki true stroy..

my firs self-made gloves

saturday lunch

sunday at Rautatientori

I mean..

yesterday i could finish an other 50g of wool. But after 5 sec I realized that this other glove is far too big. So i started to destroy it. Now I finishd the destruction. So I have to start crocheting again. I can't read it's jut like I know I have to and I feel I really don't want to read. I mean I wanna read my Murakami book which I started when I arriwed here 5 weeks ago and since than I didn't have a chance to read.
And I really wanna watch some TV shoves like there is the one named "Curb your enthusiasm" I heard about it and it sounds like really interesting, and i already dowloaded I just want to start to watch it.
So the thing is: I'm gonna read a few more pages, than im gonna start to watch it.
I meant it.

I'm not sure why I'm writing it now.
Xylimax. I hope that make sense at least for 1-2 person because I knew that's some kind of sweetener. It's really common here, but in my opinion this is the same at home, we just call it sugarfree chewing gum..
I should learn Finnish but somehow I always 'have to' do something else instead of it.  But not now. That's why I'm gonna finish (HAHA FINISH FINNISH) this record later.
So that's it I don't know what should I write.

Fagyott haj

sry for the english, but since I have to write a 7-10 pages essay to one of my courses until middle of march so I have to practice somewhere.

I felt like really humiliated.

But thanks to Freud I can refer to the repression of my unconscious . So. than I started to read, went to the gym than T. calld me, went to the SportAcademica watch the Real-Barca match.that was about wednesday.

Thursday-gymn-reading-finnish course-reading.

Friday-readig-mino+majorities-readig-finnish+spanish extra course-reading-met with a hungarian PHD-reading.

Saturday- eading- fleamarket-reading-laundry-reading-iceskating+get mugd one of the greek-reading.

Nice.

I feel bit strange. Good for me.

I don't even know how I'm eating and one hand it's pretty cool because I can now live like "normal life" but on the other hand I feel terrible, I forget to check my daily calorie intake since I arrived here to Helsinki. Ok I try to work out 3 times a week, and I bought on thursday a hullahoop and whatever. But still. on Friday I felt so neglected(I mean I don't even know why it's just sometimes I feel like I have to hug someone) and sick like I didn't even wanted to eat anything, and I wanted to throw up. Ok at least I ate and didn't do anything else.

It's just a bit crapy, that here I am I am a person nobody knows my history and yeah I just have to create stories about why I don't eat bread and than try to not forget what I've told on the other day.. Just sad.

But yeah be happy blah blah

Seriousely this just had to come out of me, unless I couldn't sleep (after 2 more pages) now.

And yeah I hope I really got some friends here, who already invited me to their countrey..

But I'll exlain it later, now I'm not in that mood.

Még van 1 óra 40percem nem meghalni, utána a jön a nyilvános kivégzés majd a túléltem akkor még sok ?????

Hát igen, így is lehet tanulni. Fogalmam sincs, hogy hogyan fogok megszólalni és legfőképp azt sem tudom, hogy mit fogok mondani.

Írtó ciki.

Mind1. Kár hogy nincs sütőm, süthettem volna pogácsát, vagy vmi sütit és akkor avval is eltelik 10 perc amíg megeszik :D

na mind1

Mit tesz a bodypump egy tonna csoki után :D

szombaton is tanulunk mert miért ne

Ma találkoztunk A-val és megbeszéltük, hogy mindkettőnk szerint a tanár, mivel nem nagyon szeretne tanítani ezért találta ki, hogy a 4óra hosszú órából 2,5 óra a 2 prezentációval és azok megbeszélésével teljen el. Mert ha ezt vesszük akkor a megbeszélés az +30 perc és akkor neki marad 1 óra, hogy beszéljen és tanítson is valamit. Mind1, ma találkoztunk és átbeszéltük, hogy mi csinálunk ppt-t, még akkor is ha a tanár szerint az uncsi. Még 1 cikket kell elolvasnom keddig és akkor kezdhetem előtől az olvasást újabb 4 tanulmánnyal. Szerintem megdöntöm 2 hét alatt az olvasási rekordomat, ha így folytatom.

Mindegy is, holnap international dinner, elvileg sütök pogácsot, mint magyar étel. Mert nincs most jobb ötletem, hogy ezt-azt beszerezni, 50 emberre. Már úgyis beszéltük 4en hogy főzünk egymásnak, ugyhogy akkor majd valami rendes magyar étellel előállok. Ma már A. mondta is, hogy Gúlyást, ő meg cserébe főz Kubait, mert kiderült az anyukája kubai. Éljen Miami girl.

Pénteken meg E. főzött mexikóit. Óra után mentünk is ebédelni T-al.

Az utakon 5 centis a jég a járdán pedig ugyanekora a letapadt jeges hó (see below the pics)

Csütörtök óta szerintem több programban vettem részt, mint az elmúlt félévben, és itt arra godolok, hogy elmenni ide-oda programra. Tegnap például voltam a Voulukiventieben lakókal korizni, mert ők szerveznek maguknak programokat, én meg totál egyedül maradtam hétvégére, mert a lakótársam hazament és csak hétfő este jön vissza. Így most úgy vagyok, hogy persze mindenben részt kell venni, ami jól hangzik program, és megismerni minnél több embert, hiszen jó ha ismersz embereket, ha bármi van.

Aztán ki kellett hívnom a securityt ami iszonyatosan gázos helyzet volt azt hittem szét kell szedni az egész ajtót ,mind1 végül megoldódott, és elmentem zumbázni. Este pedig elmentem a Wicked partyra ami iszonyatosan gáz volt egyfelől másfelől meg nagyon jó volt mert ottvoltak a "csoporttársaim" és tök jót beszélgetünk. E. megígérte, hogy majd lesz egy közös vacsora, mert sikerült házat találniuk a másik Mexikói lánnyal. Én meg mondtam, h ok akkor majd én is főzök egyszer vmi magyart.

A piramisbeli férfiegyedeket pedig messziről kerülni fogom ezentúl tudom, hogy ez egy eléggé sztereotip hozzáállásom, de itt is van 1 kivétel Ed. haverja aki ott volt tegnap, és ő iszonyatosan jófej volt, mondta is nekem , hogy mivel élt9 évig ezért ő tud beszélni arabul és ha zaklatni mer az illető ő elintézi :D Szóval vannak normális nílusiak is mondjuk ő félig finn, ugyh lehet, hogy csak emiatt.

Ma pedig elmentem turizni de nem találtam semmi jót, utána meg a shopping tourra aztán meg a city tour by tram-re. Hát igazából a félig finn-angol lánnyak meg a spanyol sráccal végignevettük az egészet, mert az üzletben, kb olyan dolgokról volt szó amit köszönöm magamtól is ki tudok találni, szóval kb semmi használható nem volt. De volt egy-két primitív kérdése 1-2 embernek és akkor megpróbáltunk vmi vicceset kitalálni, mert amikor egy lány megkérzete a marcipánpasztára, hogy és ezt enni szokták, azt hittük, hogy csak viccel. űén azthittem görögoszágban is van marcipán de mostmár nem vagyok biztos. Meg volt egy ír srác is aki iszonyat jófej volt és így végül 4en tartottunk magunknak egy járjuk körbe a boltot és csak beszélgessünk túrát. A városnézés meg vicces volt a villamossal, főleg, hogy volt amit nekem kellet helyesbítenem, mert nem tudták a helyiek de sebaj :D

Orientációs nap1

Hát ha valami macera akkor az az információ begyűjtése, értelmezése, felfogása, továbbadása, a fennmaradt kérdések megjegyzése, nem elfelejtése, utánajárás, megoldás, aggódás.

Ma legalább a bankos dolog tisztázódott, már csak abban kell reménykednem, hogy küldik időben a bankkártyámat és tudom majd használni, mert nem nagyon van már készpénzem.

Mert úgy döntöttem, megveszem a 6 hónapos bérletet a közlekedésre ami 100 euro és ha az megvan akkor még fel kell töltenem 30 euróval a telefonkártyám, hogy tudjak mosni, mert 20euro minimum kell, h legyen rajta ahhoz, hogy mosni tudj..

tehát marad kb 40 euro kézpénzem ami eléggé gázos.

dehát ez van.

Ugyhogy az a veszély nem fenyeget, h megvegyek bármiféle csizmát.

Sőt bármiféle bármit.

Ma az orientáción akik beszéltek eléggé sajátságos angolul mondották vala el a korántsem érdekes, felettébb useless információkat, így a reggeli eltévedésünk és 10 perces késésünkkel semmiről sem maradtunk le, tekintve, hogy rajtunk kívül még vagy 15 ember késett. Arról nem is beszélve, hogy iszonyatosan nehéz megtalálni a bejáratot. u alakú épület aminek a belsejének a közepén van a bejárat és ahhoz hogy eljuss meg kell kerülni az épületet fuck yeah.

De a UniCafés ebéd nagyon jó és tekintve, hogy Helsinki a világ 8. legdrágább városa itt 2.43-ba kerül az ebéd a salátabár akármennyit vehetsz ami a kistányérodra ráfér és 1 második+innivaló tej+víz/szörp

ez több mint korekt és még annál is olcsóbb, mint ha bemász a boltba és veszel ezt-azt és főzöl, arról nem is beszélve hogy meleg.

A kínai lány kérdésén még mindig nevetek: hol lehet rízst kapni, mert tegnap bementem a lakás melletti kisboltba sé nem volt. Erre én: de a finnek esznek rízst, nem? A Tutor lány: Szerintem igen, én legalább is szoktam És ismét kína: Mert hoztam magammal a rízsfőző edényem.

Előző bejegyzésem vége

Elmentünk a "Tiger Club"-ba és kemény 5 perc után haza is jöttünk, tekintve, hogy L.( a továbbiakban a szobatárs) volt a maga 22 évével a legidősebb és mindenki csak finnül beszélt, arról már nem is beszélve, hogy alig voltak és a ruhatár 3 euróba került volna..So, hazajöttünk és megbeszéltük, hogy majd holnap, ha megismerünk embereket bulizni is megyünk velük.

Elvileg írok majd egy olyan bologot ami csak Helsinkis lesz. Holnaptól kezdődik a durrbelepuff minden azaz h kell még Student Union-t, Lyyra+ISIC cardot meg ESN kártyát is kell vennem szóval kis pénzköltés, nameg a jelentkezések meg a feliratozások és kell nyitnom egy bankszámlát amit, amint megyek haza be is kell fagyasztanom, szóóval nem olyan egyszerű ez az egész.

De azért remélem, hogy az lesz.

Ma meg elvileg megyünk mindjárt a Tiger Club-ba ami elvileg a legpuccosabb és egyben most expensive Helsinkiben, de hát mit tegyünk ha ide szerveztek vmit, mástrészt a belépés ingyenes éjfélig, szóval ha mást nem be- és ki- is jöhetünk.

cause I'm ready2go!?

dammit

When I wonder WHY on earth..

.. do I have to..

..do a million things??

-clothes: The most useless invention in the history of mankind, in fact we'd all benefit from not wearing clothes.

-packing: Carrying a concealed firearm.

-suitcase: To place an object into ones ass, and hold it there for a prolonged amount of time.

-questions: An interrogative statement used to test knowledge, the reason answers came into being.

-e-mails: Proof that a million monkeys typing randomly at keyboards would NOT produce a Shakespeare play.

-answers: The communist front known as Act Now to Stop War and End Racism.

I just checked Urbandictionary.

és ilyesféle is volt a tegnapi álmom

Borzadalmas, ilyet álmodni amiben egyszerre megjelennek a szeretet-ellenszenv és mindent szebbnek látsz ha úgy akarod illetve szándékosan, mintha már-már csak magadat is átverve meg akarod nyugtatni, hogy de szép és jó is minden körülötted+veled.

-people say is not worth the wait, everybody loves somebody to hate-

-when you look whit your eyes everything seems nice, but if you look twice you can see it's all lies-

valami hasonlófélét álmodtam

nice-

and actually kinda true