In the last couple of days the blogging topic came up so often that I was thinking even if it sounds like for some of you that "Well she's just blogging about her miserable life" it feels good to write.
Especially since I moved to Finland for 3.5 years at least this time.
Ok first of all I can't complain because I have some friends whom I really really like and it's nice to have them so it's good.
But I started my studies with totally new people (24 out of 30 is Finnish- superinternational-bazinga) and ever since the first day I'm crazy in my mind thinking all the time that oh will they accept me or am I gonna get excluded because I'm a foreigner or because I'm rude or too shy or whatever reason.. And my point is that every time when I get these thoughts my brain starts to yell at me all that I have to STOP thinking like that since I've been through many things. Yes well I am sorry but one you were bullied you can't just ignore your thoughts that what if it happens again?
About bullying it was finally useful to watch Britain's got talent because there was this two 12 years old guy rapping and singing based on one of them's own experience an ANTI-bullying song. And I think this song can be really eye opening for everyone.
It was however really nice during the weekend I was at one of my classmate's place with 8 other classmates and I really enjoyed that I could go somewhere. And then yesterday we ended up at an other classmate's place which was also really nice.
But in the meantime I'm still worried if I'm gonna get excluded because of whatever reason. Well I hope not. I really do. It's hard because I'm a "foreigner" and they mostly speak Finnish with each other and my Finnish skills are limited so sometimes I have to interrupt them and ask them to speak English which I guess can be annoying. Well I'm not sorry for that because I came to an international program and I'm doing my best.
And the fact is that I'm already liking my classmates and that's why I really hope they won't hate me.
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