hope to cry just a little

I really feel like if I could cry I would do it every time when I'm alone and feel a bit sad. Or just without any reason. But I still can't so I could describe myself as a person with no sense(of humor nor tears)..
This song is the one I always listen to when I try to feel something (apparently it doesn't help but after a couple of weeks I can feel Anger because it's starts to get annoying but won't go out of my head)  at least the lyrics sais something that could be considered emotion.  Plus the melody is relaxing.
But I don't know why is  it like this. I don't like the sunshine-ok maybe the sun alergie which I do have could be the reason in this case- But after the darkness now it is seriously disturbing to wake up at 6:50 and see that it's light outside because the sun is up. Not to mention that it's totally ok for me when June July comes and it'll be almost all the time daytime. So this case I'm a bit a LOT confused with my feelings.
Whatsoever will see.. MARTA is coming tomorrow!!!!!