Feels like rain

So today in Finland the school officially started.
Yesterday Aino asked me if I could come too to her opening ceremony in the German school, and of course I said yes in case her parents agree as well.
It was super fun-everything in German and Finnish and I got on the list of who're aloud to pick her up from the school..
And suddenly it hit me: I have only 2 more weeks and then 11 months in Hungary. It sounds like a survival camp, but I know I wanna come back for good so it keeps me still alive in the emotional sense..
I'm thinking almost every day that c'mon I'm so young why do I need to finish the psychology BA but then I remember that if I would take an other gap year I wouldn't be able to finish it later because then my student status would expire.. sooo stupid.. and it's not really the reason because I would't care about it but the problem is that it costs so much that now I need to finish it.. Although on the other hand if I wouldn't finish my studies than that money that I could save up from this coming last year I could invest in something else here.. I hate this really hate it but it's decided and I need to do it.
And an other topic: so I had my birthday last Thursday and wow 22..whatever who cares but it was my first real celebration..But and I'm complaining again I was expecting from a friend to write and she still hasn't done it and I know she must have seen it on facebook or wherever and now I'm confused again that fuck it why?? how come we meet 2 days earlier and 2  and 2 earlier days and she says nothing??
Well here I am and as every other human being I have feelings too and it's super hard to pretend everything is OK when it isn't!
So now my 2 last week.. I'm gonna try to enjoy it as much as possible.. And yes sports a lot! Finally I really don't care because it makes me super happy and somehow now there are instructors telling that I'm coming or coming to the class it feels funny weird and supergood at the same time and the thing is that I'm just the annoying costumer so I don't know after 1,5 year how come one of them wants me now to come or come . Because I understand the other 2 doesn't know me juat 5 /2 moth ago that can be ok to be able to deal with me but 1.5 year??.